Monday, December 29, 2008

I CANNOT BELIEVE IT

WOW all the way through February. Only 7 days left!!! Hopefully I'll be on a plane to China at the end of March. What a wonderful anniversary (Jan. 30), B's birthday (Feb. 21), Valentine's Day all combined with a February referral. It can happen, we'll just wait and see what CH!na decides to do.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Our family wishes you a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!! Our holiday is over. K came the week before Christmas so we had our Christmas a week ago and the presents are all opened the stocking have been emptied. I am ready to take down the tree, but just can't find it in my heart to do it. I know it will come down on Friday. I pray that you will create memories that will last a lifetime. The following is just an example of the simplicity of life and we adults should sit up and notice!!!

GOD LIVES UNDER THE BED

I envy Kevin. My brother Kevin thinks God lives under his bed. At least that's what I heard him say one night.

He was praying out loud in his dark bedroom, and I stopped to listen, 'Are you there, God?' he said. 'Where are you? Oh, I see. Under the bed...'

I giggled softly and tiptoed off to my own room. Kevin's unique perspectives are often a source of amusement. But that night something else lingered long after the humor. I realized for the first time the very different world Kevin lives in.

He was born 30 years ago, mentally disabled as a result of difficulties during labor. Apart from his size (he's 6-foot-2), there are few ways in which he is an adult.

He reasons and communicates with the capabilities of a 7-year-old, and he always will. He will probably always believe that God lives under his bed, that Santa Claus is the one who fills the space under our tree every Christmas and that airplanes stay up in the sky because angels carry them.

I remember wondering if Kevin realizes he is different. Is he ever dissatisfied with his monotonous life?

Up before dawn each day, off to work at a workshop for the disabled, home to walk our cocker spaniel, return to eat his favorite macaroni-and-cheese for dinner, and later to bed.

The only variation in the entire scheme is laundry, when he hovers excitedly over the washing machine like a mother with her newborn child.

He does not seem dissatisfied.

He lopes out to the bus every morning at 7:05, eager for a day of simple work.

He wrings his hands excitedly while the water boils on the stove before dinner, and he stays up late twice a week to gather our dirty laundry for his next day's laundry chores.

And Saturdays-oh, the bliss of Saturdays! That's the day my Dad takes Kevin to the airport to have a soft drink, watch the planes land, and speculate loudly on the destination of each passenger inside. 'That one's goin' to Chi-car-go! ' Kevin shouts as he claps his hands.

His anticipation is so great he can hardly sleep on Friday nights.

And so goes his world of daily rituals and weekend field trips.

He doesn't know what it means to be discontent.

His life is simple.

He will never know the entanglements of wealth of power, and he does not care what brand of clothing he wears or what kind of food he eats. His needs have always been met, and he never worries that one day they may not be.

His hands are diligent. Kevin is never so happy as when he is working. When he unloads the dishwasher or vacuums the carpet, his heart is completely in it.

He does not shrink from a job when it is begun, and he does not leave a job until it is finished. But when his tasks are done, Kevin knows how to relax.

He is not obsessed with his work or the work of others His heart is pure.

He still believes everyone tells the truth, promises must be kept, and when you are wrong, you apologize instead of argue.

Free from pride and unconcerned with appearances, Kevin is not afraid to cry when he is hurt, angry or sorry. He is always transparent, always sincere. And he trusts God.

Not confined by intellectual reasoning, when he comes to Christ, he comes as a child. Kevin seems to know God - to really be friends with Him in a way that is difficult for an 'educated' person to grasp. God seems like his closest companion.

In my moments of doubt and frustrations with my Christianity I envy the security Kevin has in his simple faith.

It is then that I am most willing to admit that he has some divine knowledge that rises above my mortal questions

It is then I realize that perhaps he is not the one with the handicap . I am. My obligations, my fear, my pride, my circumstances - they all become disabilities when I do not trust them to God's care

Who knows if Kevin comprehends things I can never learn? After all, he has spent his whole life in that kind of innocence, praying after dark and soaking up the goodness and love of God.

And one day, when the mysteries of heaven are opened, and we are all amazed at how close God really is to our hearts, I'll realize that God heard the simple prayers of a boy who believed that God lived under his bed.

Kevin won't be surprised at all!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

12 LID's left

We are getting closer. They referred through February 23, 2006. That leaves 12 days between us and Darci. If they do 6 days in January and 6 days in February then that means that we would see out sweet Darci's face. I want to believe that this will happen, but I know that when we have a good streak going, then we get hit with a 2 day batch, so who knows!! Our youngest daughter graduates from nursing school on May 8th. Outside of getting Darci I want nothing more than to be at her graduation. I hope the timing of everything works out so we can get Darci and be back here in time for her graduation. If you feel inclinded to help us pray about this, we would covet your prayers. I have always said that God put us on this journey and that we would go when He said it was time. I know that He knows the desires of my heart and so I am trusting that I will be at Kayla's graduation and I hope that Darci is with us!!!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

33 months


We have been waiting 33 months for our sweet Darci and I still have no idea when we will see her sweet little face. Darci please know that there is not a day that does not go by that I do not think of you. You are on my mind and you live in my heart. I see things and I think about you, I see clothing that I want to buy for you, but I do not know how big you are, however, there is coming a day when I will know who you are and you will know who your parents are and who your big sisters are and who your forever family is. There are many people who are praying for you. Praying that you are safe, healthy, taken care of and that the time for us to come and get you is soon!! Mommy and Daddy love you so much and although we have waited a long long time, we know that it has been for a good reason, you were not ready for us to come and get you.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Don't stop at the 23rd - How about all of February??

It is rumored that the 23rd is in however it would be real nice if the 24th were included since I have a blogger that I follow who is LID on the 24th. However I would LOVE IT!!!!! if they would just get though the end of February. My sweet Darci is waiting for her mommy to come and get her!!!